Jung's motivation was to conduct a difficult "experiment" on himself consisting of a confrontation with the contents of his mind, paying no heed to the daily occurrences of his ordinary life. The journal entries continue over several following years and fill the next six notebooks. In these notebooks he recorded his imaginative and visionary experiences during the transformative period that has been called his "confrontation with the unconscious." These journals are Jung's contemporaneous clinical ledger to his "most difficult experiment", or what he later describes as "a voyage of discovery to the other pole of the world." He later termed the process "mythopoetic imagination".
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RICHTIGE DAUERN
play a sound
play it for so long
until you feel
that you should stop
again play a sound
play it for so long
until you feel
that you should stop
and so on
stop
when you feel
that you should stop
but whether you play or stop
keep listening to the others
At best play
when people are listening
do not rehearse
UNBEGRENZT
play a sound
with the certainty
that you have an infinite amount of time and space
VERBINDUNG
play a vibration in the rhythm of your body
play a vibration in the rhythm of your heart
play a vibration in the rhythm of your breathing
play a vibration in the rhythm of your thinking
play a vibration in the rhythm of your intuition
play a vibration in the rhythm of your enlightenment
play a vibration in the rhythm of the universe
mix these vibrations freely
leave enough silence between them
TREFFPUNKT
everyone plays the same tone
lead the tone wherever your thoughts
lead you
do not leave it, stay with it
always return
to the same place
NACHTMUSIK
play a vibration in the rhythm of the universe
play a vibration in the rhythm of dreaming
play a vibration in the rhythm of dreaming and slowly transform it
into the rhythm of the universe
repeat this as often as you can
ABWÄRTS
play a vibration in the rhythm of your limbs
play a vibration in the rhythm of your cells
play a vibration in the rhythm of your molecules
play a vibration in the rhythm of your atoms
play a vibration in the rhythm of your smallest particles
which your inner ear can reach
change slowly from one rhythm to another
until you become freer
and can interchange with them at will
AUFWÄRTS
play a vibration in the rhythm of your smallest particles
play a vibration in the rhythm of the universe
play all the rhythms that you can
distinguish today between the rhythm of your smallest particles
and the rhythm of the universe
one after the other
and each one for so long
until the air carries it on
INTENSITÄT
play single sounds
with such dedication
until you feel the warmth
that radiates from you
play on and sustain it
as long as you can
SETZ DIE SEGEL ZUR SONNE
play a tone for so long
until you hear its individual vibrations
Hold the tone
and listen to the tones of the others
—to all of them together, not to individual ones—
and slowly move your tone
until you arrive at complete harmony
and the whole sound turns to gold
to pure, gently shimmering fire
KOMMUNION
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the limbs of one of your fellow players
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the limbs of another of your fellow players
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the cells of one of your fellow players
... of another ...
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the molecules of one of your fellow players
... of another ...
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the atoms of one of your fellow players
... of another ...
play or sing a vibration in the rhythm of the smallest particles that you can reach
of one of your fellow players
... of another ...
try again and again
don't give up
ES
think NOTHING
wait until it is absolutely still within you
when you have attained this
begin to play
as soon as you start to think, stop
and try to retain
the state of NON-THINKING
then continue playing
GOLDSTAUB
live completely alone for four days
without food
in complete silence,
without much movement
sleep as little as necessary
think as little as possible
after four days, late at night,
without conversation beforehand
play single sounds
WITHOUT THINKING which you are playing
close your eyes
just listen
Quotations (a too partial smattering
Which may as well go here as anywhere):
The glacier knocks in the cupboard,
The desert sighs in the bed,
And the crack in the tea-cup opens
A lane to the land of the dead.—Auden
One evening late in the war he was at the crowded bar of the then smart Pyramid Club, in uniform, and behaving quite outrageously. Among the observers an elderly American admiral had been growing more and more incensed. He now went over and tapped Teddie on the shoulder: "Lieutenant, you are a disgrace to the Service. I must insist on having your name and squadron." An awful silence fell. Teddie's newlywon wings glinted. He snapped shut his thin gold compact (from Hermès) and narrowed his eyes at the admiral. "My name," he said distinctly, "is Mrs Smith."—A. H. Clarendon [fictional author], Time Was [fictional book]
Meanwhile the great loa ... repeat their ultimate threat—that they will withdraw. And, indeed, very gradually, their appearances have begun to be rarer, while the minor deities now come often and with great aplomb. The Haitians are not unaware of this. They say: "Little horses cannot carry great riders." ... When they do appear, many of the major loa weep. Various explanations are given for this. But the loa presumably have vision and the power of prophecy, and it is possible that, with such divine insight, they sense, already, the first encroaching chill of their own twilight. It is not surprising that this should come. It is more surprising that it has not, already, long since passed into night. Yet the gods have known other twilights, and the long nights, and then the distant but recurrent dawn. And it may be that they weep not for themselves, but for the men who served and will soon cease to serve them. —Maya Deren, Divine Horsemen
AM I IN YR ROOM SO ARE ALL YR DEAD WHO HAVE NOT GONE INTO OTHER BODIES IT IS EASY TO CALL THEM BRING THEM AS FIRES WITHIN SIGHT OF EACH OTHER ON HILLS U & YR GUESTS THESE TIMES WE SPEAK ARE WITHIN SIGHT OF & ALL CONNECTED TO EACH OTHER DEAD OR ALIVE NOW DO U UNDERSTAND WHAT HEAVEN IS IT IS THE SURROUND OF THE LIVING
THE PATRON IS OFTEN DUMB WITH APPREHENSION FOR IT IS EXTRAORDINARY WHAT WE DO U COMMUNICATE THRU MY IMPARTIAL FIRE U MATERIALIZE WITHIN MY SIGHT AS FIGURES IN THE FIRE & A PATRON CALLED UP KNOWING NO SUCH DIRECT METHOD IS NERVOUS LEST HE EXPOSE TOO MUCH OUR TALK IS TO HIM BLINDING FOR OFTEN HE COMES TO OUR FIRE & HIS REPRESENTATIVE SITS LOOMING UP THE HOPE & DESPAIR THE MEMORY & THE PAIN O MY DEARS WE ARE OFTEN WEAKER THAN OUR REPRESENTATIVES IT IS A SILENT LOVE WE ARE IN A SYSTEM OF SUCH SILENT BUT URGENT MOTIVES U & I WITH OUR QUICK FIRELIT MESSAGES STEALING THE GAME ARE SMUGGLERS & SO IN A SENSE UNLAWFUL THE DEAD ARE MOST CONSERVATIVE THEY COME HERE AS SLAVES TO A NEW HOUSE TERRIFIED OF BEING SOLD BACK TO LIFE
& NOW ABOUT DEVOTION IT IS I AM FORCED TO BELIEVE THE MAIN IMPETUS DEVOTION TO EACH OTHER TO WORK TO REPRODUCTION TO AN IDEAL IT IS BOTH THE MOULD & THE CLAY SO WE ARRIVE AT GOD OR A DEVOTION TO ALL OR MANYS IDEAL OF THE CONTINUUM SO WE CREATE THE MOULDS OF HEAVENLY PERFECTION & THE ONES ABOVE OF RARER & MORE EXPERT USEFULNESS & AT LAST DEVOTION WITH THE COMBINED FORCES OF FALLING & WEARING WATER PREPARES A HIGHER MORE FINISHED WORLD OR HEAVEN THESE DEVOTIONAL POWERS ARE AS A FALL OF WATERS PUSHED FROM BEHIND OVER THE CLIFF OF EVEN MY EXPERIENCE A FLOOD IS BUILDING UP EARTH HAS ALREADY SEEN THE RETURN OF PERFECTED SOULS FROM 9 AMENHOTEP KAFKA DANTES BEATRICE 1 OR 2 PER CENTURY FOR NOTHING LIVE IS MOTIONLESS HERE OUR STATE IS EXCITING AS WE MOVE WITH THE CURRENT & DEVOTION BECOMES AN ELEMENT OF ITS OWN FORCE O MY I AM TOO EXCITED SO FEW UP HERE WISH TO THINK THEIR EYES ARE TURNED HAPPILY UP AS THEY FLOAT TOWARD THE CLIFF I WANT TO DO MORE THAN RIDE & WEAR & WAIT ON THE FAIRLY LIVELY GROUND OF MY LIFE I HAVE BUILT THIS HIGH LOOKOUT BUT FIND TO MY SURPRISE THAT I AM WISEST WHEN I LOOK STRAIGHT DOWN AT THE PRECIOUS GROUND I KNEW THERE IS AHEAD A SERIES OF PICTURES I BELIEVE I CD SHOW U TO MAKE CLEARER MY SELF & WHAT IT IS I THINK THE FORCE OF THE FLOOD HAS ONLY ADVANCED A DROP OR 2 DOWN THE FACE OF THE CLIFF & MAN HAS TAKEN THEM TO BE TEARS NOW U UNDERSTAND MY LOVE OF TELLING MY LIFE FOR IN ALL TRUTH I AM IMAGINING THAT NEXT ONE WHEN WE CRASH THROUGH IN OUR NUMBERS TRANSFORMING LIFE INTO WELL EITHER A GREAT GLORY OR A GREAT PUDDLE—Ephraim, 26.x.61
αἰὼν παῖς ἐστι παίζων, πεσσεύων· παιδὸς ἡ βασιληίη.
Time is a child, playing a board game: the kingdom of the child.—Heraclitus
The wind gives me
fallen leaves enough
to make a fire—Issa
He put on a suit of armour set all over with sharp blades and stood on an island in the river. The dragon rushed upon him and tried to crush him in its coils, but the knives on the armour cut it into little pieces which were swept away by the current before the dragon could exercise its traditional power of reassembling its dismembered parts. Lambton had sworn that if victorious he would offer in sacrifice the first living creature he came upon, and had arranged for a dog to be set loose to meet him. But his old father, overjoyed at his success, tottered out of the castle ...—John Michell, The View Over Atlantis
October 18, 1949
Dear Jim,
In Geneva it is a habit that all strangers have their silhouet done,
and so one afternoon I went to a sitting for mine.
Tonight we are going to leave this nice old city, and I will write you as soon as I am home again. Here
I have spent my time travelling on the lake in fast white wheel-boats, reading Keats and Byron, and
wandering through the narrow streets which are full of small dark bookshops. We went to a concert with
Furtwängler, and to another with Ansermet. It is very pleasant to stay here
best wishes
Hans—Lodeizen, on the back of his "silhouet"
... désir ... des tempêtes, désir de Venise, désir de me mettre au travail, désir de mener la vie de tout le monde ...—Proust
... the famous grotto. Here Pope had constructed a private underworld ... encrusted ... with a rough mosaic of luminous mineral bodies ... On the roof shone a looking-glass star; and, dependent from the star, a single lamp—'of an orbicular figure of thin alabaster'—cast around it 'a thousand pointed rays'. Every surface sparkled or shimmered or gleamed with a smooth subaqueous lustre; and, while these coruscating details enchanted the eye, a delicate water-music had been arranged to please the ear; the 'little dripping murmur' of an underground spring—discovered by the workmen during their excavations—echoed through the cavern day and night ... Pope intended ... that the visitor, when at length he emerged, should feel that he had been reborn into a new existence.—Peter Quennell, Alexander Pope
But were it not, that Time their troubler is,
All that in this delightfull Gardin growes,
Should happie be, and haue immortal blis,
For here all plentie, and all pleasure flowes,
And sweet loue gentle fits emongst them throwes,
Without fell rancor, or fond gealosie;
Franckly each paramour his leman knowes,
Each bird his mate, ne any does enuie
Their goodly meriment, and gay felicitie.
There is continuall spring, and harvest there
Continuall, both meeting in one time:
For both the boughes doe laughing blossomes beare,
And with fresh colours decke the wanton Prime,
And eke attonce the heauy trees they clime,
Which seeme to labour vnder their fruits lode:
The whiles the ioyous birdes make their pastime
Emongst the shadie leaues, their sweet abode,
And their true loues without suspition tell abrode.—Spenser
Geh' hin zu der Götter heiligen Rath!
Von meinem Ringe raune ihnen zu:
Die Liebe liesse ich nie,
mir nähmen nie sie die Liebe,
stürzt' auch in Trümmern Walhall's strahlende Pracht!—Wagner
The powers have to be consulted again directly—again, again and again. Our primary task is to learn, not so much what they are said to have said, as how to approach them, evoke fresh speech from them, and understand that speech. In the face of such an assignment, we must all remain dilettantes, whether we like it or not.—Heinrich Zimmer, The King and the Corpse
by James Joyce
— Robert Anton Wilson, The Illuminati Papers
"Eros and Thanatos: Freud's two fundamental drives"
by Timofei Gerber
"Freud on The Subject/Object Division"
by John C. Brady
Hypnos
by René Char
(1943–44)
Hypnos took hold of winter and dressed it in granite. Winter turned to sleep and Hypnos to fire. The rest is man’s affair.
The following notes owe nothing to self-love, the short story, the maxim or the novel. A fire of dry grass might equally well have been their publisher. At one point, the thread was lost at the sight of the torture victim’s blood, any importance they possessed destroyed. They were written under strain, in anger, fear, rivalry, disgust, cunning, furtive reflection, the illusion of a future, friendship, love. They are intimately bound up with events, that is. I would then glance over them from time to time but seldom read them through.
The notebook might have belonged to no one at all, so remote is the meaning of a man’s existence from his journeyings in life, and so hard to tell apart from a mimicry at times quite staggering. Tendencies of this kind were combatted just the same.
The following notes mark the resistance put up by a humanism conscious of its obligations but reluctant to proclaim its virtues, a humanism eager that the inaccessible field be kept free for its suns’ imaginings and determined to pay the price for that.
1
As far as possible, teach them to be workman-like—to stick to the goal and not beyond. Beyond is smoke. And where you have smoke, you have change.
2
Don’t get bogged down in results.
3
Have the real culminate in action, like a flower tucked into the acrid mouth of a young child. Inexpressible knowledge of the hopeless diamond (life).
4
To be stoical is to be in a rut, with the beautiful eyes of Narcissus. We have taken stock, over every inch of our bodies, of the pain the torturer may one day exact; then, with a heavy heart, have gone out to face him.
5
We belong to no one unless to the gold point of that lamp, unknown to us and out of reach, which keeps courage and silence on their guard.
6
The poet strives to turn old enemies into loyal foes, for any fruitful future will depend on how well he has planned ahead—especially when so many sails are rising, twining, sinking and being decimated in which the wind from the mainland surrenders its heart to the wind from the abyss.
7
This war will drag on beyond any platonic armistice. Political concepts will go on being sown after a show of argument on both sides, amid the upheavals and under cover of a hypocrisy sure of its rights. Don’t smile. Put aside scepticism and resignation and prepare your mortal soul to confront, within these walls, demons that have the cold-blooded genius of microbes.
8
The moment the instinct for survival gives way to the instinct for possession, reasonable human beings lose all sense of their probable lifespan and day-to-day equilibrium. They grow hostile to small chills in the atmosphere and submit without further ado to whatever evil and deceit might require of them. Under a maleficent hailstorm their miserable existence simply crumbles away.
9
After fumbling about a bit at the beginning, Mad Arthur has now given himself over, with all the decisiveness of his strong-willed nature, to our hazardous games of chance. His hunger for action must make do with carrying out the precise task I assign to him. He does as I ask and contains himself for fear of getting a good scolding! God knows what hornet’s nest his fearlessness would land him in otherwise. Faithful Arthur, like a soldier of old!
10
No amount of authority, no amount of planning and ingenuity can replace a scrap of conviction in the pursuit of truth. A commonplace I think I have improved.
11
My brother the Tree Surgeon, whom I’m still without news of, used to joke about being on intimate terms with the cats of Pompeii. By the time we found out that this generous creature had been deported, his prison had closed behind him; chains defied his courage; Austria held him.
12
What brought me into the world and will usher me out of it only interferes at moments when I am too feeble to resist. An old lady when I was born, an unknown young woman when I die.
One and the same passer-by.
13
Time seen through an image is time that has faded from view. Being and time are quite different. An image when it has transcended being and time shimmers with eternity.
14
Having twice put him conclusively to the test, I have no trouble convincing myself that the thief who has somehow slipped into our midst is beyond redemption. A pimp (he even boasts about it), spiteful in the extreme, going to pieces before the enemy, wallowing in the horrors he reports, like a pig in offal—nothing to look forward to, other than the most serious troubles, from this runaway slave. Likely, moreover, to introduce a vile fluid here.
I will do the thing myself.
15
The children get bored on Sundays. Sparrow suggests a twenty-four-day week that would cut out Sundays. In other words, adding one hour from Sunday to each of the twenty-four days, preferably the hour spent at table, since there’s no more dry bread.
But let there be no more talk of Sundays!
16
Intelligence with the angel, our prime concern.
(Angel: that which, in man, keeps the word of the utmost silence, the meaning that cannot be pinned down, free from any compromise with religion. A tuner of lungs, gilding the vitamin-rich vines of the impossible. Knows the blood, disregards the celestial. Angel: a candle leaning north of the heart.)
17
I’m always glad at heart to stop off at Forcalquier, share a meal with the Bardouins, shake hands with Marius the printer and Figuière. These good people are friendship’s citadel on the hill. Whatever hinders clear thinking and slows up trust has been banished from here. We have been wedded, once and for all, in the presence of the essential.
18
Keep the imaginary part for later; it, too, is susceptible of action.
19
The poet cannot remain for long in the strato-sphere of the Word. He must curl up in fresh tears and push on into his own estate.
20
I think of that army of deserters, hungry for dictatorship, whom those who survive the Faustian algebra of these times will perhaps see back in power in this mindless country.
21
Bitter future, bitter future, a round dance in a briar of roses . . .
22
to the prudent: It’s snowing on the Maquis and the hunt for us is always on. You whose house does not weep, whose avarice has crushed out love, the fire that warms you, day after day, is a sick-nurse. Too late. The cancer in you has spoken. Our native country has been stripped of its powers.
23
The present, an embattled parapet . . .
24
France has the reactions of a piece of human flotsam disturbed during its siesta. Let us hope that the caulkers and shipwrights busy in the Allied camp do not prove wreckers in their turn . . .
25
Noon separated from day. Midnight cut off from men. Midnight with its putrid knell that one o’clock, two o’clock, three o’clock, four o’clock cannot muzzle.
26
Time can no longer look to the clock for support; today, the hands claw at one another on the clock face of man. Time is dog grass and man will become the grass’s sperm.
27
Léon maintains that mad dogs are beautiful. I believe him.
28
There’s a species of man who is always one step ahead of his own excrement.
29
This age of ours, with its peculiar way of nurturing things, hastens the prosperity of scum, who step gaily over the barriers that society once put up against them. Will the same mechanism that now acts as a stimulus to them, on breaking, break them too, once its hideous resources have been exhausted?
(And as few survivors as possible from that particular malady!)
30
Archduke confides to me that it was on joining the Resistance that he found himself. Prior to that, he had been a froward and mistrustful actor in his life. Insincerity was poisoning him. Little by little, he was being overcome by a barren sadness. Today, he loves, spends out, commits himself, goes naked, provokes. I think very highly of this alchemist.
31
I keep my writings short. I can hardly be away for long. To write at length would turn into an obsession. The adoration of the shepherds is no longer of any use to the planet.
32
A man without faults is a mountain without crevasses. He’s of no interest to me.
(A rule for water-diviners and worriers.)
33
Redbreast, my friend, arriving this autumn when the gardens were deserted, a landslide of memories has been brought down by your song that the ogres would love to hear about.
34
Wed, and do not wed, your home.
35
You will be part of the fruit’s savour.
36
A time when an exhausted sky sinks deep into the earth and man in his death agony is scorned on both sides.
37
Revolution and counter-revolution are donning their masks, preparing for combat once again.
Short-lived candour! After the combat of eagles comes the combat of octopuses. The genius of man, who thinks he has discovered all-encompassing truths, turns truths which kill into truths which authorize one to kill. The show put on by these backward-looking visionaries, fighting at the front of an armour-plated and exhausted universe! While the collective neuroses grow ever more pronounced in the eye of myth and symbol, psychic man tortures life, without, it seems, feeling the slightest remorse. The hideous flower, the outlined flower, revolves its black petals in the mad flesh of the sun. Where is the source? Where the remedy? When will the economy finally change its ways?
38
They go down under the sheer weight of their prejudices or drunk with enthusiasm for their bogus principles. Have them work together and exorcize their demons; lighten their tread, make them supple and sinewy; then convince them that, beyond a certain point, the importance of received ideas is altogether relative and that the ‘matter in hand’ is, in any case, a matter of life or death, not of some nuance one would like to see recognized by a civilization that may well sink without trace on the ocean of destiny—these are the things for which I struggle to win the approval of those around me.
39
We are torn between hunger for knowledge and despair at having known. The goad won’t abandon its sting, nor we our hope.
40
Discipline, you’re bleeding all over!
41
Were it not sealed tight with tedium at times, the heart would stop beating.
42
Between the two rif le shots that would decide his fate, he had time to call a fly ‘Madame’.
43
Mouth, which used to decide if this was mourning or marriage, poison or potion, sickness or beauty—what has become of bitterness and tenderness, its dawn?
Hideous head, grown irritable and corrupt!
44
Friends, snow is awaiting snow, for a task to perform, simple and pure, at the boundary of earth and air.
45
I dream of a benevolent country garlanded with flowers, irritated suddenly by the deliberations of its elders but moved at the same time by the zealousness of certain gods in their dealings with women.
46
An act is virgin, even when repeated.
47
Martin, who comes from Reillanne, calls us the catimini, the ‘secret ones’.
48
I’m not frightened, merely giddy. I must break down the distance between the enemy and myself. Confront him horizontally.
49
What might seem enticing about oblivion is that the most beautiful day there can be any day at all.
(Cut down this branch. No swarm will ever hang from it.)
50
Over and against whatever’s out there, against all that: a Colt 45 with its promise of sunrise!
51
Uproot them from their native earth. Set them down in what you presume to be the harmonious soil of the future, bearing in mind that success can only ever be partial. Have them progress through the senses. That is the secret of my ‘skill’.
52
‘The anvil’s mice’. The image would have appealed to me in the past. It suggests a swarm of sparks decimated in its own lightning flash. (The anvil is cold, the iron not red-hot, the imagination aghast.)
53
Having the mistral blowing didn’t help matters. With every hour that passed, my fears increased, with little reassurance to be had from the presence of Cabot watching the road for passing convoys that might stop to launch an attack. The first container exploded as it struck the ground. Driven on by the wind, the fire spread to the woods and had soon made a blot on the horizon. The plane altered course slightly and came in for a second run. The cylinders swinging from their multicoloured silks got scattered over an enormous area. We battled for hours in an infernal glare, splitting up into three groups: one lot fighting the fire, doing what they could with axes and spades; a second lot gone off in search of stray arms and explosives and bringing them to the waiting truck; a third providing us with cover. From the tops of pines, panicking squirrels leapt like tiny comets into the blaze.
As for the enemy, we just managed to avoid him. Dawn crept up on us before he did.
(Beware of anecdotes. They’re railway stations where the stationmaster loathes the signalman!)
54
Starlight in the month of May . . .
Whenever I look up at the sky now, my jaw swims with nausea. I no longer hear the moan of pleasure, the murmur of a woman half open, welling up from the freshness within. Ash from a prehistoric cactus is blowing my desert apart! I’m no longer capable of dying . . .
Cyclone, cyclone, cyclone . . .
55
Never definitively formed, man is the keeper of his contrary. The orbits his cycles describe vary according to the forces to which he is, or is not, subject. As for the mysterious depressions and absurd inspirations that rise up from the great crematorium outside, how hard it is to ignore them. Ah! to move generously along the seasons of the almond shell, while the almond within beats free . . .
56
A poem is all furious ascension; poetry, the play of arid riverbanks.
57
The source is rock, the tongue severed.
58
Word, storm, ice and blood will eventually come together in one great frost.
59
If man did not close his eyes out of majesty from time to time, he would eventually see nothing worth looking at.
60
Light up the imagination of those who stammer when they mean to speak, who blush when they state their view. They are staunch partisans.
61
An officer over from North Africa is surprised that my ‘bloody Maquisards’, as he calls them, speak a language he cannot understand, his ear being hostile to ‘speaking in images’. I point out to him that slang is merely picturesque, whereas the language we are accustomed to using here has its source in the wonder communicated by the creatures and things we live in intimate daily contact with.
62
No will testifies to our inheritance.
63
You only fight well for a cause which you yourself have shaped and which you then get burnt identifying with.
64
‘What will they do with us, afterwards?’ This is the question that bothers Minot, who, at the ripe old age of seventeen, adds, ‘As for myself, perhaps I’ll revert back to the good-for-nothing I was at fifteen . . .’ This child, who relies far too much on the example of his comrades, whose goodwill is all too impersonally of a piece with theirs, never takes stock of his own resources. Right now this is a blessing. I rather fear that afterwards he will take up once again with those charming lizards whose heedlessness is watched eagerly by the cats . . .
65
The quality of those in the Resistance is not, alas, everywhere the same. For every Joseph Fontaine, who has the rectitude and tenor of a ploughman’s furrow, for every François Cuzin, Claude Dechavannes, André Grillet, Marius Bardouin, Gabriel Besson, Doctor Jean Roux or Roger Chaudon converting the granary at Oraison into a castle perilous, how many elusive charlatans there are, more concerned with enjoying themselves than with producing. You can be sure that, come the liberation, these cocks of oblivion will be crowing loudly in our ears . . .
66
The moment I yield to that foreboding which dictates man’s cowardice in life, I bring into the world a host of undying friendships that comes rushing to my aid.
67
Armand, the weatherman, calls his job ‘the Department of Enigmas’.
68
Dregs in the brain: east of the Rhine. Moral chaos: this side of the river.
69
I see mankind ruined by political perversion, confusing action and atonement, and naming conquest his own annihilation.
70
The devils’ alcohol quietly doing its work.
71
Night, swift as the boomerang we have carved from our bones, and whistling, whistling . . .
72
In action, be primitive; in foresight, a strategist.
73
If the grass’s subsoil is to be believed, where a pair of crickets were singing last night, prenatal existence must indeed have been heavenly.
74
Alone and manifold. Watching and sleeping like a sword in its scabbard. A stomach in which foods are kept separate. A candle’s altitude.
75
Rather depressed by this wavelength (London), just enough to arouse a longing for help.
76
To Carlate, who was going off at a tangent, I said, ‘You can busy yourself with the things of death when you are dead. We’ll no longer be with you. We need all the strength we can muster to do the job properly and see it through to the end. I won’t have our paths weighed down with fog just because clouds are stifling your summits. The time is ripe for metamorphosis. Make the most of it or get out.’
(Carlate’s fond of solemn rhetoric. He’s a desperate windbag, a fatty infrared.)
77
How can you hide from what is meant to be part of you? (The mistake made by modernity.)
78
What matters most in certain situations is master-ing one’s euphoria in time.
79
I thank whatever lucky star has allowed us to have the poachers of Provence fighting on our side. The knowledge these primitives have of the forest, their gift for calculation and their keen flair, no matter what the weather—I would be surprised if a failing were to come about from that quarter. I shall see to it that they are given shoes fit for gods!
80
Our star-sickness is incurable, yet life fiendishly gives us the illusion of health. Why? In order to squander life and poke fun at health?
(I must resist my inclination for vapid pessimism of this kind, an intellectual heritage . . .)
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Acquiescence lights up the face. Refusal gives it beauty.
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The almond and the olive tree, one sober, the other dreamy and cantankerous—on the open fan of twilight, may our curious health stand guard.
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The poet, guardian of life’s infinite faces.
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You lay bare a person’s soul when you go back on your intimacy with them, while at the same time taking responsibility for their development. Bound hand and foot, I suffer that fate against my will and ask that person to forgive me.
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Icy curiosity. Objectless appraisal.
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The purest harvests are sown in a soil that doesn’t exist. They rule out gratitude, their only debt being to spring.
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LS, thank you for ManDrop Durance 12. It goes into operation from tonight. Make sure the young team assigned to the field doesn’t slip into the habit of appearing too often on the streets of Duranceville. Girls and cafes dangerous for more than a minute. But don’t pull too tightly on the reins, I don’t want a squealer in the team. No communication outside the network. Stamp out bragging. Check all intelligence against two sources. Allow for fifty per cent fancy in most cases. Teach your men to be attentive, to give an exact report, to set down the arithmetic of a given situation. Bring together rumours and sum up. Drop point and letterbox with the Friend of the Wheat. Waffen operation possible, foreigners’ camp at Les Mées, with overflow onto Jews and Resistance. Spanish republicans in real danger. Urgent you warn them. For yourself, avoid combat. ManDrop sacred. In the event of an alert, disperse. Other than to rescue captured comrade, never let the enemy know you exist. Intercept suspects. I leave it to you to judge. The camp will never be revealed. The camp doesn’t exist, only charcoal kilns that don’t give off smoke. No washing hung out when the planes come over, and all men under trees or in the scrub. No one will come to see you on my behalf, apart from the Friend of the Wheat and the Swimmer. With the men in your team, be strict and considerate. Friendship muffles discipline. When working, always do a few kilos more than the others, without taking pride in the fact. Eat and smoke conspicuously less than they do. Don’t favour one person over another. Tolerate only spontaneous, gratuitous lies. Don’t let them call across to one another. Let them keep their bodies and their bedding clean. Let them learn to sing quietly and not to whistle tunes that stick in the head, to tell the truth exactly as it presents itself. At night, they should keep to the side of the path. Suggest precautions but allow them the merit of finding them out for themselves. Rivalry excellent. Oppose monotonous habits and encourage those you don’t want dying out too soon. Last but not least, love the ones they love, at the same moment as they do. Add, don’t divide. All well here. Affectionately. hypnos.
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How can you hear what I am saying? I’m so far away . . .
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François, worn out after five straight nights on alert, says, ‘I’d gladly swap my sabre for a cup of coffee!’ François is twenty.
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In the past, names were given to the different portions of time—this was a day, that was a month, this empty church a year. Any second now, we will be face to face with death at its most violent and life at its most clearly defined.
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We roam in the vicinity of wells that have been sealed off from their waters.
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All that has the face of anger and does not raise its voice.
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The struggle to endure.
The symphony that buoyed us up has fallen silent. We must trust in the alternation of powers. So many mysteries have been neither fathomed nor destroyed.
94
I was examining a tiny snake sliding between two stones this morning, when Félix cried out, ‘The slow-worm of grief.’ The loss of Lef èvre, killed last week, flares up with all the force of superstition in an image.
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The darkness of the Word leaves me sluggish and immune. I take no part in the dreamlike agony. Dispassionate as stone, I am the mother of distant cradles.
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You can’t reread what you have written but you can sign your name.
97
The plane flies low. The invisible pilots jettison their night garden, then activate a brief light tucked in under the wing of the plane to notify us that it’s over. All that remains is to gather up the scattered treasure. So it is with the poet . . .
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The flightpath of a poem. Its presence should be felt by all.
99
He reminded me of a dead partridge, the poor invalid, who, after being stripped of the few rags he possessed, was murdered by the militia at Vachères, who accused him of harbouring ‘partisans’. Before finishing him off, the gangsters enjoyed themselves at great length with a girl who was part of the expedition. With one eye torn out and his chest stoved in, the innocent man took in this hell AND their laughter.
(We have captured the girl.)
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We must overcome our rage and disgust and see that they are shared by others; our influence will gain in quality and scope, as will our morale.
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Imagination, my child.
102
Memory has no control over what we remember. And what we remember is helpless in the face of memory. Happiness no longer surfaces.
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A yard of entrails to measure the odds.
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Our eyes alone can still cry out.
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To and fro goes the spirit, like that insect which, the moment the lamp is out, scrapes at the kitchen, upsetting the silence, poking about in the dirt.
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Harrowing obligations.
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You can’t make a bed for tears as you would for a passing visitor.
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Impassioned powers and strict rules of action.
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These flowers with their fragrant mass, to brighten the night now falling on our tears.
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Eternity is not much longer than life.
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Light has been banished from our eyes. It’s buried somewhere in our bones. It’s our turn now to hunt for it and put back its crown.
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The prelapsarian seal of cosmic approval.
(In the narrows of my night, may this grace be granted me, more overwhelming, more significant even, than those signs seen from so great a height that there’s no need to imagine them.)
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Be on intimate terms with what will come to pass, not in a religion (a senseless solitude), only in that succession of dead ends where, with nothing to nourish it, the face of your loved one tends to fade from view.
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I will write no poem of consent.
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In the Garden of Gethsemane, who was the odd man out?
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Don’t take undue account of the duplicity you meet with in people. In reality, the seam is sectioned at numerous points. Let this be a stimulus rather than a source of irritation.
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Claude tells me, ‘Women are queens of the absurd. The more a man commits himself, the more they complicate that commitment. Ever since the day I became a “partisan”, I haven’t once felt unhappy or disappointed . . .’
There will be plenty of time to teach Claude that nobody carves out of his own life without cutting himself.
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Woman of punishment.
Woman of resurrection.
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I think of the woman I love. All of a sudden, her face is veiled. Even the void is ill today.
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You hold a match to the lamp, yet no light is shed by the flame you’ve lit. Only a long way off does the circle shine.
121
I aimed at the lieutenant, Bloodspat at the colonel. The flowering gorse concealed us behind its flamboyant yellow vapour. Jean and Robert threw the grenades. The little enemy column immediately beat a retreat. Except for the machine-gunner, but he didn’t have time to become dangerous; his belly exploded. We used the two cars to make our get-away. The colonel’s briefcase was full of interest.
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Fontaine-la-Pauvre, the prodigal fountain.
(The march has left us with our hips sawn through and our mouths hollowed out.)
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A moving appetite for conscience in these young men. None of the endless upstairs-downstairs of their fathers. Oh! to be able to set them on the right path where the human condition is concerned, for you can rest assured that, sooner or later, it will need rehabilitating. Yet, since God takes no part in our quarrels and the stranglehold of origins senses that it is loosing its grip, the new experts will need an intellectual scope and a grasp of detail of which I have yet to see any sign.
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cave-france.
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Let the mind find its own way about without the aid of staff maps.
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Between reality and the account you give of it, there is your own life, which magnifies reality, and this Nazi abjection, which ruins that account.
127
There will come a time when the nations playing hopscotch on the universe will be as close-knit as the organs of the body and one in their economy.
What will become then of that narrow stream in man, his daydreams and his flights of fancy? Bursting with machines, will the brain still be able to safeguard its existence? Like a sleepwalker, man advances towards the murderous minefields, led on by the song of the inventors . . .
128
The baker hadn’t even had time to unhook the iron shutters of his shop before the village was under siege, gagged, hypnotized, unable to make the slightest move. Two companies of SS and a detachment of militia had it pinned down under the muzzle of their machine-guns and mortars. Then the ordeal began.
The inhabitants were thrown out of their houses and ordered to assemble on the main square. Keys to be left in their doors. An old man, hard of hearing, who did not respond quickly enough to the order, saw the four walls and roof of his barn blown to bits by a bomb. I had been up since four. Marcelle had come up to my shutters and whispered the alarm. I had realized at once that it would be pointless trying to break through the cordon surrounding the village and get out to the countryside. I quickly changed lodgings. The empty house where I took refuge would allow me, if the worst came to the worst, to put up an effective armed resistance. I could follow from behind the yellowed curtains of the window the nervous comings and goings of the occupying forces. Not one of my men was present in the village. I took comfort in the thought. A few miles from there, they would be following my instructions and lying low. I could hear blows being delivered, punctuated by cursing. The SS had caught a young mason on his way home after emptying his traps. His fright marked him out for their tortures. A voice leant, screaming, over the swollen body: ‘Where is he? Take us to him,’ followed by silence. A shower of kicks and rifle butts. An insane rage took hold of me, dispelling my anguish. Sweat poured from my hands as I clenched my revolver, rejoicing in its pent-up powers. I calculated that the poor creature would remain silent for five minutes more, then inevitably would speak. I felt ashamed wanting him to die before the time was up. Then, issuing from every street, came a flood of women, children and old men, making their way to the assembly point according to an organized plan. Taking their time, they hurried forward, literally streaming over the SS and paralysing them ‘in all sincerity’. The mason was left for dead. Furious, the patrol pushed its way through the crowd and marched off. With infinite prudence now, anxious, kind eyes glanced in my direction, passing like beams of light over my window. I partially revealed myself and my pale face broke into a smile. I was bound to these people by a thousand threads of trust, not one of which was to break.
I loved my fellow creatures fiercely that day, far beyond the call of sacrifice.
129
We are like those frogs who, in the austerity of the marshes at night, call to but cannot see one another, bending the fatal arc of the universe to their cry of love.
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From the debris of mountains, I have put together men who, for a time at least, will embalm the glaciers.
131
At every meal taken together, we invite liberty to sit down. The seat remains empty but the place is laid.
132
It seems that the imagination which in varying degrees haunts the mind of every living creature is quick to abandon it when the latter has only the ‘impossible’ and the ‘inaccessible’ as ultimate mission to propose. Poetry, it has to be allowed, is not everywhere sovereign.
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‘Charitable work must be kept up, for man is not naturally charitable.’ Rubbish. Oh, what murderous drivel!
134
We are like those fish trapped alive in the ice on a mountain lake. Matter and nature seem to be protecting them, yet barely limit the fisherman’s odds.
135
You don’t need to love your fellow men to be of real help to them. All you need is to wish to improve that look in their eyes when they behold someone even more impoverished than themselves, to prolong for a second some agreeable moment in their lives. Once you’ve adopted this approach, treating each root in turn, their breathing becomes more peaceful. Above all, don’t cut out the more arduous paths altogether, for after the effort comes the tearful and fruitful evidence of truth.
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Youth holds the spade. Let no one snatch it away!
137
The goats are to the right of the flock. (It’s good to have cunning and innocence walk side by side when the shepherd is good and the dog steady.)
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Horrible day! I witnessed, some hundred yards away, the execution of B. I had only to squeeze the trigger of my machine-gun and he could have been saved! We were on the high ground overlooking Céreste, the bushes bursting with weapons and at least equal in number to the SS. They didn’t know we were there. To the eyes all around me, begging me for the signal to open fire, I replied with a shake of the head . . . The June sun sent a polar chill through my bones.
He seemed unaware of his executioners as he fell, and so light that the slightest breath of wind would have lifted him from the ground.
I didn’t give the signal because the village had at all costs to be spared. What is a village? A village like any other? Perhaps he knew, at that final instant?
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Enthusiasm takes the weight of the years on its shoulders. It’s fraudulence that speaks of the century’s fatigue.
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Life began with an explosion and will end with a pact? It’s absurd.
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The counter-terror is this valley filling little by little with mist; these leaves rustling briefly underfoot like fireworks sputtering out; this nicely balanced load; these muffled movements of animals and insects drawing a thousand lines through the tender bark of night; this clover seed on the dimple of the face you kiss; this fire on the moon that will never be a fire; this tiny future whose plans are unknown to us; this brightly coloured bust that folds away with a smile; and this shadow thrown, a few steps further on, by a man who is briefly your companion and crouches there, thinking the leather of his belt is about to give . . . Who cares, then, what time or place the devil has fixed for the rendezvous?
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A time of raging mountains and fantastic friendship.
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mountain-eve: That young lady whose seamless life was exactly the same size as the heart of our night.
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How moth-eaten your old butterfly bones have become!
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That happiness which is nothing but anxiety deferred. A blue-tinted happiness, wonderfully unruly, taking pleasure as its springboard, annihilating the present and all its jurisdictions.
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Roger was delighted at having become in the eyes of his young wife the husband-who-was-hiding-God.
Today, I passed the field of sunflowers the sight of which so inspired him. The heads of these wonderful, insipid flowers were weighed down with drought. It was a few yards from there that his blood was spilt, at the foot of an ancient mulberry tree as deaf to the world as its bark is thick.
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Will we later be like those craters no longer visited by volcanoes, where the grass yellows on its stem?
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‘Here he comes!’ It’s two in the morning. The plane has seen our signals and reduced altitude. The breeze won’t be a problem for the visitor we’re expecting, who’s coming in by parachute. The moon is the colour of sage and polished tin. ‘A school for poets of the eardrum,’ whispers Léon, who always has the right word for the occasion.
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My arm is in plaster and causing me some pain. Dear Doctor Tall Fellow has made a marvellous job of it, despite the swelling. Luck that my subconscious guided my fall in quite the way it did. Otherwise, the grenade I was holding, with its pin out, stood a very good chance of exploding. Luck that the Feldgendarmes heard nothing (they had left the engine of their truck running). Luck that I didn’t pass out with my head cracked like a flower pot . . . My comrades congratulate me on my presence of mind. I have difficulty persuading them that no credit is due me. It all went on outside me. After a thirty-foot fall, I felt like a basket of dislocated bones. Fortunately, there was almost nothing of the kind.
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It’s a strange feeling, deciding the fate of certain individuals. Had you not intervened, the dumb waiter of life would have continued on its mediocre round. Whereas here they are delivered up to the most poignant juncture of all . . .
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Reply ‘missing’ yourself or you risk being misunderstood.
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The silence of morning. The apprehension of colour. The luck of the sparrowhawk.
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I see more clearly now the need to simplify, to have everything working together as one, when it comes to deciding whether such and such a thing needs to be done. Man is sorry to have to leave his labyrinth. The age-old myths urge him not to go.
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The poet, inclined to exaggerate, thinks clearly under duress.
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I love these people so enamoured of what their hearts imagine to be freedom that they offer up their lives to prevent what little freedom remains from dying. The virtue of the common man is marvellous. (Free will, they say, does not exist. Human beings are defined by cells, by hereditary traits, by the brief or more extended duration of their fate . . . Yet between all that and mankind is an enclave of unforeseeables and metamorphoses, which we must guard the entrance to and make sure is preserved.)
156
Amass, then share out. In the mirror of the universe, be the densest, the most useful and the least conspicuous part.
157
We’re racked with grief on learning that Robert G. (Émile Cavagni) is dead, killed in an ambush at Forcalquier last Sunday. The Germans have robbed me of my finest brother-in-arms, one whose helping hand sufficed to ward off a catastrophe, whose timely presence had a decisive influence on the shortcomings that threaten us all. A man with no formal education but grown strong in adversity, his kindness never wavered and his diagnosis was faultless. His conduct was an informed mixture of rousing boldness and good sense. Resourceful, he would carry his advantages through to their utmost conclusion. At forty-five, he walked tall, like a tree of liberty. My love for him was uneffusive and unencumbered. Steadfast.
158
Adjustable wings and smiles free of rancour are what we now find in ourselves when we ponder the vulgar convict camp of thieves and assassins. The man-with-a-fist-like-cancer, the great Murderer within, has moved in our favour.
159
So close is the affinity between the cuckoo and the furtive creatures we have become that whenever that bird—which you hardly ever see, and, even when you do catch sight of one, is always dressed in anonymous grey—lets out its heart-rending song, a long shudder goes through us in response.
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Dew of humanity, drawing up and concealing its frontiers between first light and the emergence of the sun, between the eyes that open and the heart that remembers.
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Fulfil with regard to others what you have promised to yourself alone. That is your contract.
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Now is the time when the poet feels rising in him the noontide powers of ascension.
163
Sing your irridescent thirst.
164
Loyal and vulnerable in the extreme, we counter the gratuitous (another word I have cleansed from my body) with an awareness of events.
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The fruit is blind. It is the tree that sees.
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For a heritage to be truly great, the hand of the deceased must be invisible.
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Ketty the dog takes as much pleasure as we do in gathering the parachute drops. She goes briskly from one to the other without barking, knowing exactly what is required. Once the work is over, she stretches out, happy, on the dune formed by the parachutes and falls asleep.
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Resistance is nothing but hope. Like the moon of Hypnos, full tonight in all four quarters, tomorrow a view onto the poems coming through.
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Clarity of vision is the closest wound to the sun.
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The rare moments of liberty are those when the unconscious becomes conscious and consciousness the void (or mad orchard).
171
The ashes of winter are in the fire that sings of refusal.
172
I pity the man who gets others to pay his debts for him, then compounds those debts with an aura of apparent mindlessness.
173
Some women are like the waves of the sea. Surging forward with all the energy of youth, they break over a rock too high for their return. Henceforth, they are stranded there—stagnant pools, beautiful for a second under lightning, on account of the salt crystals they contain, which little by little become their lives.
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The loss of truth, the deadweight of that organized ignominy called ‘good’ (evil, when not depraved but whimsical and inspired, is useful) has opened a wound in man’s side that only the hope of the unformulated far horizon (a plenitude of life despaired of ) makes bearable. If the absurd is to be lord and master here on earth, then I opt for the absurd, the anti-static, whatever weights the passions in my favour. I’m a man of the riverbanks—of erosion and inflammation—for I cannot always be of the mountain stream.
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The meadow folk enchant me. I never tire of naming over to myself their frail, good-natured beauty. The field mouse and the mole, brooding children lost in a dream of grass; the slow-worm, son of glass; the cricket, utterly lamb-like; the grasshopper, who clacks and counts her linen; the butterfly, who feigns drunkenness, annoying the flowers with his silent hiccups; the ants, made wise by the boundless green expanse; and, immediately overhead, the meteoric swallows . . .
Meadow—the jewellery box in which the day’s treasures are laid.
176
Ever since that kiss in the mountains, time has been governed by the golden summer of her hands and the sidelong ivy.
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Children perform the delightful miracle of remaining children while seeing the world through our eyes.
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The colour reproduction of The Prisoner by Georges de la Tour, which I have pinned to the whitewashed wall of the room where I work, seems, with time, to reflect its meaning back on our predicament. It makes your heart bleed, yet how refreshing it is! For two years now, not one réfractaire has stepped through that door without his eyes smarting at the evidence of that candle. The woman explains, the prisoner listens. The words falling from this red angel’s earthly silhouette are life-giving words, words which are immediately of help. In the depths of the dungeon, the minutes of tallow light pull at the features of the seated man, diluting them. Thin as a dry nettle, no memory I can see could quicken his withered flesh. The bowl is a ruin. But the billowing robe suddenly fills the entire dungeon. The power of woman’s Word to give birth to the unforeseeable is greater than any dawn.
My gratitude to Georges de la Tour for mastering the Hitlerian darkness with a dialogue between human beings.
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Come to us who are reeling from sunstroke, O scornless sister, Night!
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It’s the hour when windows slip from their homes and light up at the end of the world where our own world will one day dawn.
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I envy the child who stoops over the sun’s hand-writing, then rushes off to school, brushing aside with a poppy the lines set as punishment and the rewards.
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A lyre for interned mountains.
183
We fight on the bridge thrown between the vulnerable individual and his ricochet at the fountainhead of formal power.
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Heal the bread. Bring the wine to table.
185
At times I take refuge in the silence of Saint-Just at the Convention of the Ninth Thermidor. I understand—ah! only too well—the procedure involved, the crystal shutters closed for ever on communication.
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Are we doomed to be only the beginnings of truth?
187
Action, which has meaning for the living, only has value for the dead, is only complete in the minds of those who inherit and question it.
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Between the world of reality and myself, there is none of that dreary impenetrability any more.
189
So many people confuse their own ill humour with the spirit of revolt, see a lineage in a surge of feeling. Yet the moment truth finds an enemy worthy of itself, it puts off the armour of ubiquitousness and fights with the resources that are the very essence of its condition. It’s impossible to express, this sense of something deep down which, the moment it materializes, vanishes into thin air.
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How inexorably strange! From this ill-guarded life, somehow to have thrown the quick dice of happiness . . .
191
The rightest hour is when the almond bursts from its restive shell and gives new shape to your solitude.
192
I see hope, the stream in which tomorrow’s waters will run, drying up in the gestures of those all around me. The faces I love are wasting away in the nets of expectation, which eats into them like acid. How little help we receive, what scant encouragement! The sea and its shores are the obvious way forward but have been sealed off by the enemy. They are at the back of everyone’s mind, the mould for a substance comprised, in equal measure, of the rumour of despair and the certainty of resurrection.
193
So unreceptive has our sleep become that even the briefest of dreams cannot come galloping through to refresh it. The prospect of dying is submerged beneath an inundation of the absolute so all-engulfing that the mere thought of it is enough to lose any desire for the life we cry out for and implore. Once again, we must love one another well, must breathe more deeply than the executioner’s lungs.
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I do violence to myself to ensure that, whatever my mood, my voice remains dipped in ink. It’s with a pen like a battering ram, therefore, forever doused, forever relit, serried, tense and in a single breath, that one thing gets written down, another forgotten. Vanity’s clockwork doll? I honestly think not. A need to check the evidence, to breathe life into it.
195
If I survive, I know that I shall have to do away with the aroma of these vital years, quietly put my treasure behind me (not bury it away inside) and learn to conduct my life in the simplest manner possible, as in the days when I was searching for, but not yet master of, myself—with naked dis-satisfaction, only a glimmer of knowledge and a questioning humility.
196
This man around whom my sympathy is sure to revolve for a while counts because his eagerness to serve coincides with a whole halo of auspicious circumstances and with the plans I have for him. Let us work together while there is still time, before whatever it is that brings us together turns unaccountably to hostility.
197
Be of the leap, not of the feast, its epilogue.
198
If only life could be disappointed sleep . . .
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There are two ages for the poet—the age when poetry, in every respect, treats him badly and the age when she allows herself to be furiously kissed. But neither age is clearly defined. And the second is by no means sovereign.
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It’s when you are drunk with sorrow that all that remains of sorrow is the crystal.
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The way of hiding shimmers in the heat.
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The presence of desire, like that of the god, is unaware of the philosopher. The philosopher, in return, chastises.
203
Today, I experienced the minute of absolute power and invulnerability. I was a hive flying off to the springs of altitude with all its honey and bees on board.
204
Truth, mechanical infanta, remain earth and murmur amid the impersonal stars!
205
Doubt is at the origin of all greatness. History, being unjust, prides itself on not mentioning the fact. Doubt in this sense is genius. It should not be likened to the uncertain, which comes about when the powers of sensation are broken up.
206
Every ruse I am forced by circumstances to adopt prolongs my innocence. I am carried in the palm of a gigantic hand. Each line there modifies my conduct. And I stand there like a plant in its soil, though my season is of nowhere.
207
Certain acts of mine find a way through my nature like a train through the countryside—through no will of mine and with the same vanishing art.
208
The man who sees only one fountainhead knows only one storm. It interferes with his luck.
209
My inability to organize my life comes from my being faithful, not just to one person but to all those with whom I feel a genuine sense of kinship. This constancy persists amid clashes and differences of opinion. There’s a funny side to it all, for when-ever feeling and literal meaning break down in this way, I imagine that the people in question are plotting to do away with me.
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Your boldness, a wart. Your action, a specious image tainted by self-interest.
(I can still recall the fatuous remark made by that charcoal-burner from Saumanes who claimed that the French Revolution had purged the region of an altogether criminal gentleman, a certain Sade. One of his exploits had consisted in slitting the throats of his farm manager’s three daughters. The Marquis’s breeches were bulging even before the first beauty had expired . . .
The idiot stuck to his guns, his alpine avarice, needless to say, not wanting to make the slightest concession.)
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The justicers fade into the distance. Lo! the covetous turn their backs on the airy heather . . .
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Thrust into the unknown, which burrows deep. Force yourself to keep turning.
213
This morning, I watched Florence making her way back to Mill on the Calavon. The footpath swirled round her—a flowerbed of bickering mice! The chaste back and long legs failed to grow smaller in my eyes. The jujube breasts lingered beneath my teeth. Stirred by each note in turn, I played over her splendid musician’s body, unknown to mine, until the foliage, at a turning, stole her from my view.
214
I haven’t seen a star light up on the forehead of those about to die, only the pattern cast by a venetian blind which, when raised, afforded a glimpse of an array of objects, heart-rending or resigned, in an enormous room where happy housemaids were milling about.
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No one quite knows why, yet heads full of slimy sap have turned up in our winter and stuck there ever since. A filthy future is written in their features. Dubois, for example, confirmed and perpetuated by his informer’s spartan fat. May the righteous in heaven and a stray bullet grant him the honours of their wit . . .
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The shepherd cannot possibly be a guide any longer. So political man, that new farmer general, has decided.
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Olivier le Noir asked me for a pan of water to clean his revolver. I suggested gun grease. But it was indeed water that was needed. The blood on the sides of the basin was beyond the range of my imagination. What point was there picturing the shameful, broken-down figure, a gun barrel in his ear, writhing in his own juices? A justicer had returned, like someone who, after giving the soil a good turn, wipes the muck from his spade before looking up with a smile at the burgeoning young vines.
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In your conscious body, the reality of the imagination is a few minutes fast. This gap, which can never be bridged, forms a gulf that is alien to the acts of this world. It’s never a straightforward darkness, however redolent of warm summer nights, the religious afterlife, incorruptible childhood.
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All of a sudden, you remember you have a face. The features which shape that face weren’t always racked with grief. Drawn to its varied landscape, creatures gifted with kindness would appear. Nor was it only castaways who succumbed, exhausted, to its spell. The loneliness of lovers could breathe freely there. Look. Your mirror has turned into a fire. Little by little, you remember your age (which had been struck from the calendar), that surplus of existence which, by working at it, you will turn into a bridge. Step back inside the mirror. Arid it may be but at least its fruitfulness has not run dry.
220
I dread not only the anaemia but the feverishness that is sure to set in in the years following the war. Our cosy unanimity, our insatiable hunger for justice, will, I sense, be short-lived, once the bond uniting us in combat has been broken. On the one hand, we prepare to lay claim to an abstraction; on the other, we turn away like blind men from anything likely to alleviate the cruelty of the human condition in our time and allow us to move into the future with a confident step. Already disease is everywhere at war with its remedy. Phantoms rush about giving advice, paying calls—phantoms whose empirical souls are a mare’s nest of neuroses and phlegm. This rain now drenching man to the bone is his expectation of aggression, his acquiescence in contempt. We will be quick to forget. We will give up consigning things to the scrapheap, cutting away and healing. We will assume that the dead we have buried have walnuts in their pockets, and that a tree will one day spring up of its own accord.
O Life, if there is still time, give the living a little of your subtle common sense, but without the vanity that would misuse it. And above all, perhaps, convince them that you are not quite as accidental and remorseless as you are said to be. It’s not the arrow that is hideous, only the arrowhead.
221
Night Chart
Once more, the new year mingles our eyes.
The tall grass stands watch, its one love the fire
and the prison at which it gnaws.
Afterwards, the victor’s ashes
And a tale of evil;
Afterwards, the ashes of love,
The sweetbriar with its surviving knell;
Afterwards, your ashes,
The imaginary ashes of your life immobile on its
shadowy cone.
222
Come, little vixen, lay your head on my knees. I am not happy, and yet you suffice. Night light or meteor, not a swollen heart or future is left on earth. In the twilight marches your murmur can be heard, the den you have lined with mint and rosemary, the whisperings the reds of autumn share with your own light robe. You are the soul of the deep-wombed mountain, its rocks silent behind lips of clay. Let your nostrils quiver. With your hand, close the path behind you and draw the curtain of trees. Little vixen, with the frost and wind, these two stars, for my witness, I place all my fallen hopes in you, for the thistle’s victory over rapacious solitude.
223
Life, that cannot and will not trim its sails; life, that the winds leave foundering in mud on the harbour shore, though always ready to rise above torpor; life less and less plenteous, less and less patient—show me my share, should I have one, my just share in the common fate, at the centre of which my singularity stands out yet holds the mixture together.
224
In the past when I went to bed the idea of a temporary death in the arms of sleep was a comfort to me; today I go to sleep just to live for a few hours.
225
The child sees the man not in a reliable but in a simplified light. Therein lies the secret of their inseparability.
226
A decision that’s binding isn’t always a source of strength.
227
Man is capable of doing what he is incapable of imagining. His mind furrows the galaxy of the absurd.
228
Who are the martyrs working for? It’s in the commitment of setting sail that greatness lies. Exemplary lives are made of steam and wind.
229
The colour black houses the impossible, alive. Its mental realm is the seat of the unforeseen, the paroxystic, in all its forms. Its resplendence is the poet’s escort and girds the man of action.
230
All the virtue of the August sky, all the virtue of our trusted companion, anguish, in the golden voice of the meteor.
231
A few days before his execution, Roger Chaudon said to me, ‘On this planet of ours, mankind occasionally has the upper hand but most of the time not. The order in which the ages occur can’t be reversed. Ultimately, it’s what puts my mind at rest, despite the joy of being alive which shakes me like thunder . . .’
232
The outstanding neither turns the head of its murderer nor moves him to pity. The murderer, alas, has the eyes needed to kill.
233
Bear in mind, without letting it affect you, that the targets evil most enjoys picking off are the unsuspecting ones, the ones it has had plenty of time to approach. All that you have learnt about men—their senseless volte-faces and incurable moodiness, their harlequin-like subjectivity and love of a good brawl—should prompt you, once the action is over, not to linger too long at the scene of your relations.
234
Eyelids, the gates to a happiness as liquid as the flesh of a shellfish; eyelids that the frenzied eye is powerless to capsize; oh, how satisfying are eyelids!
235
Anguish: skeleton and heart; city and forest; dung-hill and magic; incorruptible wilderness; vanquishes only in the mind; victorious; silent; mistress of speech; wife to one and all; and mankind.
236
‘My body was vaster than the earth and I knew only a tiny part of it. So manifold are the promises of bliss now stirring in my soul that I beseech you to keep your name known only to ourselves.’
237
In the darkness of our lives, there is not one place for Beauty. The whole place is for Beauty.
The Oak Rose
Each of the letters that makes up your name, O Beauty, on the honours roll of human suffering merges with the plane simplicity of the sun, forms part of the giant phrase barring the sky and joins forces with the man bent on outwitting destiny with its indomitable contrary—hope.